Sometimes..

Sometimes there doesn’t even have to be a reason.

I knew from experience that no matter

how much you turn things in your head,

trying to make sense of them,

Some people just defy all Logic.!!

Pune Diary..!!

Well, it has been almost 3 years since I shifted to Pune for my post grad. The minute I landed I had this weird feeling as though I had taken the wrong flight and landed in a wrong place. I felt like my last days were coming, I mean I thought I landed in an Arab country. The reason, let me tell you- Almost literally all the girls here tie up their faces with bed sheet sized shawls. I mean, what if I winked at a girl and she winks back and reveals that she’s got no nose? Man, in this city I feel like a blind man on a tour to Taj mahal. Anyway, I think I’m exaggerating too much.

My blog, poor thing, if it was my wife or something it would have poured kerosene on me and set me ablaze.. :)

This part of the country is so damn different. These guys dance for everything. I mean everything. Well this reminds me that I’ve landed in Maharashtra. For one, I don’t know Marathi that well. To top that, when I speak to them with my silly broken Marathi, you can imagine how pissing it can be. If you belong to the Thackrey family, make note, I should top the list- “To be kicked out.” But anyway, I’ve fallen in love with this city. I mean, what else to fall in love with? Girls? I’ll tell you when I get to see them. But seriously, love this city. It has the right mix. Not too crowded, no big traffic jams, no road rage..
So yeah, after 3 months of life without a television, we finally bought one. Since then, German Bakery Attack is the name spinning in my head all day. Damn these terrorists.!!

And what’s this shit all about? I’ll just talk a line and chak comes the reply- Are you from Nagpur?? and I’ll be like - “Where the hell did you get that from?”

Anyway, I have loads to write about. But then, have something planned for now. So, until next time, take good care, see ya.

By the way, I ask these girls why they cover up their faces like lady terrorists; and they tell me- “Pollution.” Shit-o-shit. Crap-o-crap..

25 Dimesnions..!!

I’m supposed to write 25 random things about myself. I’ve had this notion of not writing tags, but somewhere in the middle of the night, I woke up when a thought struck me like lightening-
“Stop acting over smart and do those tags which nice people generously pass on.” At 12 in the night, here I am..

1--> I plucked off a white hair that I spotted on my head today. How depressing for a first thing to do on the morning of New Year. I’m 25, but I’m getting to feel like 75.

2--> I watched a movie of Sharukh yesterday (Ra One). I knew girls liked him but not to the extent that no guys watched his movie. The theatre was 80% girls. Man, I felt weird, but not completely bad. :P

3--> I sometimes, all of a sudden feel like listening to slow, depressing songs. Feel like taking a walk alone in a park. Feel like staying alone n all that. This serves as entertainment for my silly friends.

4--> People talking to me for the first time can easily come to a conclusion- “ What a boring person he is!” That is cent percent right. It takes time for me to get along with people. I tried to change, but I guess I’m like that.

5--> Right now, I’m feeling – 25 things about me is just too (three) much.

6--> I love the color- Black. Black and blue is the combination I like the most. It doesn’t go well with dresses thought.

7--> I can prepare dosas, chapathis, bread-omlet and few such tiffins. I’m famous in my family for preparing Tea. So, in case unemployment strikes me - chai..chai..chai chai chai… in the railway stations.. surely. 

8--> I sometimes feel I can make a Mega serial (soap opera) with my cricket stories (rather woes) and my health issues. Just need a good ‘camera-man’ who can zoom in on me thrice every second.

9--> I love writing funny stories. I love the fact that I make people laugh by doing so (if that is a fact btw!!). What better than laughter? ;)

10--> My posts may not suggest this, but I’m a responsible person, be it on the road or generally as a citizen.

11--> I don’t like people who always keep grumbling. Be happy until u die, keep worries for heaven.

12--> My favourite movie is – The pursuit of Happiness. It inspires me like nothing does.

13--> Am presently listening to a song- ‘Tanha Dil Tanha Safar.’ From ‘Shaan’. The song is soothing. Next on the playlist is Bryan Adams.

14--> I am shy. Hehe. Yeah, I feel shy sometimes.

15--> I wish to move around to more places. I was born, brought up and spoilt all here in Nagpur. I love the city though.

16--> Just like another billion in our country, I’m crazy about cricket. I pretty much understand all the technical details about it. I’ve been coached by some national players, also had been selected for my state U-15 team, but that was the end of the story. Health issues. I recollect this once in a week at least. Can’t help. Can’t digest.

17--> I can’t imagine how my life would have been if I hadn’t been blogging. Best thing that has happened to me recently, really.

18--> Kids in my family circle like me like hell. They do all sort of things with me. Once they put a flower on my ear, took snaps and laughed whole day. I wonder if I’m that funny.

19--> I hate it when people compare me with someone else.

20--> I’m getting to like my name nowadays. :P

21--> I must say I have a wonderful brother. He’s 6 years elder to me. I love the way he cares for me. I keep trying to reciprocate, along with a few fights as usual. ;)

22--> Comments on my blog make me very Happy. So I try to leave a comment on which ever blog I visit.

23--> Now, I’m feeling the heat. 25 is too much asboo.

24--> I get stupid thoughts sometimes when I read the newspaper.

25--> I’ve a good sense of humor and expert in pulling legs of my friends.. No wonder thy call me "The Silent Killer.!!" ::

Cheers..!!

Guest Post - From my Friend's Heart.!!

There is this guy I know,

Who puts up a great show..

Funny, witty and friendly is he,

As patient as patient could be..

Sometimes serious, most times fun,Everything is packed into one..

He makes you smile in times of despair,
Now that is a quality so rare..

Ev\er ready with a helping hand,
If you've fallen, he'll help you stand..

He's rekindled imaginations almost fifty times now,
And each time he made us go "Wow!"

May he always be there,
to wash away my sorrow..

And hey Mr. Silent Killer!
You better pay me by tomorrow.!! ;-)

Sinking Ship

You are at the cross roads of life..

Paths-a-many lay in front of you..

You are clueless as to what to choose...

Do you know that feeling?

I feel it right now. And it stifles me.I'm here at the most crucial juncture of my life...where I need to make this one quick decision and save my whole life from tumbling and crashing down.

Once I decide there's no changing it. Or swapping it with something else. It's final. No time for regrets. No time to analyse if I've taken the right step or not.

I'm afraid when I think of the consequences. What if I falter and tread in the wrong road? On the road not meant for me...the road winding and curving into deeper darker abyss...taking me into unknown where I shouldn't have been. What if there's no light? What if there's darkness consuming me? What if there's no air to breathe? What if it is full of enemies and hostility ready to tear me down?

What if.....??

There are two main roads (many other smaller bifurcations which I can overlook--

One-- This is where my heart is. My love depends on it. My soul drags me into it headlong....and I am afraid if I will make a bumpy collision. For I don't know what awaits me. I am not even sure why my heart is being pulled towards it- into a place too dark where I can't see the end.So many conditions and practical considerations for achieving 'it'. But my heart says 'nothing else matters' and ' I don't care'.Tougher one also. For it is long and I need to sweat to toil it. But the fruits are sweeter eventually. If everything goes according to plan , then I am going to be the happiest in the world. The question is : will everything go according to plan? So there's a lot of uncertainty about it. It is based on so many impractical and irrational factors.

And then there's road TWO--The easier one. The sensible one also.Perhaps? Quick and comforting. But I know I won't be happy. I just know it. My heart will feel suffocated. It's far...too far actually. And I'm not too sure of it. Nobody I know has taken it. Do I overlook my heart's cries for desperate help when I choose this road? Should I stab my heart and turn a deaf ear to it? It actually is easier to not heed my heart. For to listen to its howling bothers me more. I might as well lock it and throw it somewhere. Oh crap, I might as well slash my wrists and make my heart to stop thumping. Do I venture far out in the desert where I know not one friendly soul just because it gives me momentary pleasure and pleases my vanity? For how long do I keep wandering in search of the oasis?

And then there's time constraint breathing on my neck, with that annoying tick-tick sound bothering me and preventing me from thinking clearly. People await my decision ...their constant gaze is on my foot wondering where I will step on.

I feel like an aimless sinking sink. A ship on the verge of a wreck, just awaiting and counting seconds before ramming into the ice-berg. I'm doomed anyway.No particular destination to report to... just aimlessly wandering and being carried by the dictating waves. My decision alters with the changing winds. Even faster than the bat of an eyelid. I'm unsure of 'it'...of myself...of my future....of my love....of my life....of people around...of why the bloody hell I was born in the first place?????

But then I can't just sit here and wait, while weighing my options and making a fool of me..

Broken Friendship

Around the corner I have a friend,

In this great city that has no end,

Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,

And before I know it, a year is gone.

And I never see my old friends face,

For life is a swift and terrible race..


He knows I miss him just as well,

But the days go by just like Hell.

And now we are busy, tired men.

Tired of playing a foolish game,

Tired of trying to make a name.


"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on her.

Just to show that I'm thinking of her”

But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,

And distance between us grows and grows.


Around the corner, yet miles away,

"Here's a telegram sir," "She died today."

And that's what we get and deserve in the end.

Around the corner, a vanished friend.


Remember to always say what you mean.

If you love someone, tell them.

Don't be afraid to express yourself.

Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.

Because when you decide that it is the right time,

it might be too late.

Seize the day. Never have regrets.

And most importantly, stay close to your friends
and family, for they have helped  
make you the person that you are today.

Windowless Soul

Pressure at work?

Betrayed in love?

No reebok shoes?

Unnerving exams?

Lost in contest?

Unpaid dues?

You think you’re the only one in misery
That God doesn’t answer to your plea
Well, he doesn’t answer to my simple query--
I ask him how different is blue from green?
The rainbow colours unheard and unseen

And why they say spring is so colourful?
That poets, lovers, artists muse and cherish
I want to rhyme, kiss and paint dreams on canvas
Unmotivated, I ink about a dreary life, an unfulfilled wish
As my mind is trapped, God forgot to create windows
Canopied from inspiration and beautiful visions to relish

The ocean waves kissing the shore
Is it a sight worth dying for?
Twinkle, twinkle little star
How I wonder how you are!
In my mind’s eye, I do imagine, the ocean and the night
But am I doing justice to its beauty by envisioning it right?

Acknowledging the world by feel and touch
I feel the warmth of a loved one’s hug and cuddle
The velvet petal’s silkiness they call a daffodil
Walking barefoot on grassblades the dewdrop’s tickle

Mirror, mirror on the wall, tell me do I look like a doll?
They say that I look so pretty…
Do they really mean it or say just to keep me happy?
I don’t understand how different beauty is from lack of it
That butterfly be admired, and caterpillar be trampled?
Is a rose so aesthetically different from a thorn?

They say my twinkling innocent eyes
glimmer like molten gold
Oh but of what use? Lifeless vestiges,
numbed to the perceptions of the outside world

The only colour I know is black
They say grass is green, sky is blue
You should tell me…is it really true?
I hear the ringing innocent laughter of a child, oh so pure!
Is his smile genuine reaching eyes? I wonder
I smell the lingering fragrance of newly drenched earth
And wish to witness the sky pouring out silver shower
I hear the melody and tune of the humming bird
And wish to see it sucking nectar out of perfumed flower

Trapped in a murky dark inferno
I close my eyes, all I see is stygian black
I open my eyes, I still see shades of the same
Keeping my four senses open,
With every step I take, venturing into the mysterious
Being beware of the ensuing hurdles,
Foraying into chasm of obscure shadows
I tripped, I was knocked, I was hurt and hit,
I bled to sanguine liquid drops they called blood


And you say you’re the only one in misery?
That god was unfair to you?
Yes, you are not as gifted as I am!
I’m spared to see the aversion mounting among mankind
Where the innocence of a child is stripped and cashed.
Reverence, candour, integrity --the words of yesterday
Kindness, compassion, civility --the virtues of history

What’s left in the world to see?
Deteriorating values and ethics of humanity?
Fraud and deception taking over fairness in quality?
Discrimination and discord wiping out unity?

Behind money and fame, on a wild goose chase
To appreciate small joys you don’t slow your pace
The rose, sky, butterflies and sun rays
A person’s negativity over his goodness is all that you see
I pity you! That way, pretty rotten place the world would be
You think you’re the only one in misery?
That God doesn’t answer to your plea?

Yes how true!

Airborne

Running with echoing footsteps

on my terrace

flying paper kites colourful and brigh

Watching my kite conquering the sky

splattered with clouds

soaring with birds taking flight

I felt bitter sweet nostalgia gripping me

going down the memory lane

Reminiscing childhood days

When I've flown kites and paper plane

I wish I were a kite

escalating to heights

creating rungs to the sky

chasing unfulfilled dreams

eyes with leaping imagination

discovering new lands

across the unknown boundaries

challenging the gusting winds

unceasing to ensuing predicaments

 

I'm at awe, at how just a bit of paper

grows wings and transcends horizons

while I'm here grounded for life

yet to sprout roots underneath

 

I wish I were a kite

with wisdom controlling my chaotic sanity

like the string monitoring the kite

from running amuck..

Last day of College.!!

Raah dekhi thi iss din ki kabse,
Aage k sapne saja rakhe the naa jane kabse.

Bade utaavle the yahaan se jaane ko,
Zindagi ka agla padaav paane ko.
 
Par naa jane kyon ..Dil mein aaj kuch aur aata hai,
Waqt ko rokne ka jee chahta hai.

Jin baton ko lekar rote the Aaj un par hansi aati hai,
Na jaane kyon aaj un palon ki yaad bahut aati hai .
Kaha karte the ..Badi mushkil se 4 saal seh gaya,
Par aaj kyun lagta hai ki kuch apne peeche reh gaya.

Na bhoolne wali kuch yaadein reh gayi,
Yaadien jo ab jeene ka sahara ban gayi.
 
Meri taang ab kaun kheencha karega,
Jahaan 2000 ka hisaab nahi, wahaan 2 rupay k liye kaun ladega,
 
Kaun raat bhar saath jag kar padega,
KAUN MERI gaadi mujse pooche bina le jayega,

Kaun mere naye naye naam banayega.
Mein ab bina matlab kis se ladoonga,
 
Kaun fail hone par dilasa dilayega,
Kaun galti se marks aane par gaaliyaan sunayega.
 
Tapri mein Chai kis k saath piyoonga,
Wo haseen pal ab kis k saath jiyoonga,
 
Mere gaano se pareshaan kaun hoga,
Kabhi muje kisi ladki se baat karte dekh hairaan kaun hoga,
 
Kaun kahega saale tere joke pe hansi nahin aai,
Kaun peeche se bula ke kahega..aage dekh bhai..

Movies mein kiske saath dekhhonga,
Kis ke saath boring lectures jheloonga ,

Doston ke liye professor se kab lad payenge,
Kya hum ye fir kar payenge,
 
Raat ko 2 baje poha khane station kaun jayega ,
Tez gaadi chalane ki shart kaun lagayega .
 
Kaun muje mere kabiliyat par bharosa dilayega,
Aur zyada hawa mein udne par zameen pe layege ,

Meri khushi mein sach mein khush kaun hoga,

Mere gam mein mujh se zyada dukhi kaun hoga..

Easy to Read... Difficult to Follow

Easy is to get a place in someone's address book.

Difficult is to get a place in someone's heart.

Easy is to judge the mistakes of others

Difficult is to recognize our own mistakes.

Easy is to talk without thinking

Difficult is to refrain the tongue.

Easy is to hurt someone who loves us.

Difficult is to heal the wound.

Easy is to forgive others

Difficult is to ask for forgiveness.

Easy is to set rules

Difficult is to follow them.

Easy is to dream every night

Difficult is to fight for a dream.

Easy is to show victory

Difficult is to assume defeat with dignity.

Easy is to admire a full moon

Difficult to see the other side.

Easy is to stumble with a stone

Difficult is to get up

Easy is to enjoy life every day.

Difficult to give its real value.

Easy is to promise something to someone

Difficult is to fulfill that promise.

Easy is to say we love

Difficult is to show it every day.

Easy is to criticize others

Difficult is to improve oneself.

Easy is to make mistakes

Difficult is to learn from them.

Easy is to weep for a lost love

Difficult is to take care of it so not to lose it.

Easy is to think about improving

Difficult is to stop thinking it and put it into action.

Easy is to think bad of others

Difficult is to give them the benefit of the doubt.

Easy is to receive

Difficult is to give.

Easy is keep the friendship with words

Difficult is to keep it with meaning.!!

Helping Hand..

Never Without LOVE!!

My life was over, Or so it had seemed,
I said my goodbyes, And I silently screamed.

I knew it was wrong, But it just felt so right,
When sadness creeps in, It puts up a fight.

I went into the kitchen, I looked all around,
I saw what I needed, My heart started to pound.

I tested the edge, As I picked up the knife,
I placed it over my wrist, As I went over my life.

I had no one to leave, Nobody who cared,
A small little girl, Could certainly be spared.

The phone started to ring, And I suddenly knew,
I don't really know how, But it had to be you.

I slowly walked over, And picked up the phone,
In that moment I'd never felt more alone.

You begged me to stop, To not do what I would,
I said nothing at all, I don't think that I could.

You cried and you pleaded, And I didn't know how,
I had missed it so long, But I finally saw now.

You may think life is hopeless, That there's no help from above,
But as long as you have friends, You'll always have LOVE..

Waiting For You to be Mine !!

Wait for the boy who pursues you.

The one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical;

The kind of boy who brings out the best in you and

Makes you want to be a better person.

 

Wait for the boy who will be your best friend;

The person who will drop everything to be

with you at any time of the day no matter

what the circumstances.

 

Wait for the boy who makes you smile

Like no other boy makes you smile,

And when he smiles you know he needs you.

 

Wait for the boy who wants to

Show you off to the world when you are in

sweats and have no makeup on,

But appreciates it when you get all dolled up for him.

 

And most of all,

Wait for the boy who will put you at the center of his universe,

Because obviously he's at the center of yours...

I LOVE YOU..

Everytime I say, "I LOVE YOU"..

I'm really trying to say so much more than those three little words.

I'm trying to say you mean more to me than anyone else in the world.

I'm trying to let you know that I adore you

And that I cherish the time we spend together.

I'm trying to explain that I want you and that I need you

And that I get lost in wonderful thoughts every time I think about you.

And each time I whisper "I love you", I'm trying to remind you that you're the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Endless Love

Find someone that isn't afraid to admit they miss you.

Someone that knows you're not perfect but treats you as if you are.

Someone who couldn't imagine losing you.

Someone who gives their heart to you completely.

Someone who says I love you and proves it.

Last but not least,

Find someone who wouldn't mind waking up to you in the morning,

Seeing your wrinkles and grey hair but still falls in love with you all over again..

Love is Ironic

Love is ironic...

Only when you hurt someone they realise they truly love you.

We shall always fall in love with the people who break our hearts.

Love gushes out of the ruptures of a broken heart

And then sends shivers to the whole of our existence.

Love has to come out somehow and that is

usually through pain and hurting.

A heart which is unwilling to be broken,

is unable to love.

Similarly, if you cannot break someone's heart,

it is a sign that they shall never truly love you..

She's My Girl..

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot..

Who calls you back when you hang up on him,

Who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,

Or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...

Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in track pants,

Who holds your hand in front of his friends,

Who thinks you're just as pretty without make-up on.

 

One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares

And how lucky he is to have YOU...

 

The one who turns to his friends and says, "That's her"

Keep the love ALIVE

When you feel cold and warm at the same time,

When you read over the same line for the tenth time,

When your heart and thoughts somehow appear to rhyme,

And when a simple name conquers your whole mind,

Then you are in deep trouble my friend.

You are in what they call.........

"LOVE"

Everyone says Love Hurts, But that is not True!!

Loneliness hurts.

Rejection hurts.

Losing someone hurts.

Envy hurts.

Everyone gets these things confused with love,

But in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain

And makes someone feel wonderful again.

Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt

My Perfect Girl

I love HER when she makes me cry
I love HER when she lies

I love HER when she's angry
I love HER when she misunderstood me

I love HER when we fight
I love HER when she sneaks out at night

I love HER when she comes home late
I love HER when she gives me headache

I love HER when she teases me
I love HER when she breaks my rule
I love HER when she shouts at me

I love HER when she makes me sad
I love HER when she makes me mad

I love HER when she makes me feel alone
I love HER when she's mad at me
I love HER when she choose his friends over me

I love HER when she does the things I hate
I love HER when she makes me wait

I LOVE HER 'CUZ SHE'S IMPERFECT...

And her IMPERFECTION made her.........MY PERFECT GIRL..... !!